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Monday, March 19th, 2007
8:07 am
LoNg TiMe NO TALK...
hey! its been a long while since ive wrote on here!! well lets catch up!!!
Tody is married, perry is datin a friend of mine...ummm i live in sardis, ms now and im datin a 15 yr. old from michigan city, ms....a.k.a.-lamar, ms....well i guess everythin is goin good 4 me...i mean i get into alot of trouble along tha way and i have planty of new friends...one in particular is this guy casey jenkins.....he likes me..i like him....nuff said....i would like to be with him cuz hes 18 and im 18...&& my bf is waaayyy too young 4 me anyways...but i heard casey is a player..but the only way im gonna find out is on my own...:[[....so confusing...i dont wanna leave my bf cuz i might get hurt but i wanna be with casey........grrr....decisions decisions!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well gots 2 go love!!!!!!!!



"Lately I've been runnin'
Into our old friends
And somewhere in the small talk
Someone always asks where you've been
So I tell them what you told me
And they can't believe we're through
They ask me what I'm doin' now
And in case you're wonderin' too

I breathe in I breathe out
Put one foot in front of the other
Take one day at a time
'Til you find
I'm that someone you can't live without
Until then 
I breathe in and breathe out

I've got every reason
To find someone new
Cause you swore up and down to me
That I've seen the last of you
But the way that you loved me
Girl, left me hopin' and holdin' on
So until this world stops turning round
And my heart believes you're gone

I breathe in I breathe out
Put one foot in front of the other
Take one day at a time
'Til you find
I'm that someone you can't live without
Until then 
I breathe in and breathe out

We were meant to be
Girl, there's no doubt
And if it takes the rest of my life
For you to figure it out..."



Current Mood: thirsty
Stuck in Hell
Saturday, August 5th, 2006
11:46 pm
deprreSsed and stresSed :(
Today started out okay....a friend came over this mornin and everything was good until about 9:45 pm...i went to my friend devin's and my ex, joey, was there...i didnt know what 2 say or do when i was there...i was a total wreck after i saw him...he kept talkin bad about me cuz he was drunk i took it 4 a while then as i was leavin he called me a bitch....i couldnt take it anymore...i just freaked.....i miss him sooOOooo much and he acts like he doesnt care about me at all...:(.....when we finally left i started cryin and burnin rubber around every curve....i wanted 2 get home quick b-4 i lost complete control...so here i sit depressed and stressed...BOYZ!!! they suck...what else can i say?! cant live with 'em cant live without 'em bullshit right there...poh well...joey is comin over here 2morrow 2 see my brother, thomas, and thomas said that he would mention somethin 2 him about the whole deal.....but i cant go outside bcuz joey said if he sees me walk out then he was leavin....ya know what FUCK'EM!!! but i will quit babblin and go cry myself 2 sleep...LaTeRZ!!! <3 KaTiE

"Without a doubt, if it ain't perfect i'll perfect it til' my heart explodes!!"~HiNdEr; "GeT StOnEd"

Current Mood: depressed
Stuck in Hell
Thursday, August 3rd, 2006
3:53 pm
!!! **HeRe i Am AgAiN** !!!
It's been soeo long since I have been on livejornal I almost forgot it was here!! lol...well heres what has happend since the last time i wrote...tody and i broke up..i started datin "man of my dreams", perry, he cheated on me, i dated joey wait..broke up with him 4 ody..tody had a wreck tody got married to jodi switcher, perry asked me out again..cheated on me again...chose the other girl over me...now he is tryin to "talk" 2 me again...he is on crack if he thinks i am gonna forgive him...lol..oh well..its summer time but school starts back in 3 days and im drivin 2 school!! yay!! i have a new best friend..we havent been actin like it lately but durin the school year its all goin back 2 normal!!!! YaY! I miss our spazin' days and our i dont give a fuck kinda nights...hopefully those will be the first to come back..i cant wait!!! REMEMBER: **BoYs BrEaK hEaRtS sO wHy NoT bReAk ThEiR nEcKs??!** but here are some lyrics to keep ya goin':

"you make me feel out of my element
like i'm walkin' on broken glass
like my worlds spinnin' in slow motion
and you're movin' too fast

were you right, was i wrong
were you weak, was i strong, yeah
both of us broken
caught in the moment
we lived and we loved
and we hurt and we joked, yeah
but the planets all aligned
when you looked into my eyes
and just like that
the chemicals react..."-Aly and A.J. "Chemicals React"

c-ya'll later!!! <3 katie!!!

Current Mood: chipper
Stuck in Hell
Sunday, November 6th, 2005
10:32 am
Hey!
It's been a while since I last wrote...Anyways...I am still talking to Perry...Yes I am still dating Tody :(...But I am not sure how much longer it will last...Perry and I are becoming very close again and I am realizing that maybe Perry is what I need...not just what i want...maybe the gut feeling is right 4 once!!! I feel so happy when I talk to him... I am so pathetic... A few days ago I caught myself calling Perry's phone, knowing it was off, just to hear his voice on the answering machine... I do not know what my problem is...Tody and I are gettin no where, we just argue 24/7...But Perry and I have never once argued over anything beside over the fact that I wouldn't open my eyes to see that Tody is not the one for me... Perry has pretty much promised me the world... and I want to see how things would be if he and I were together... Everyone thinks that Perry and I were meant for each other(soulmates)... And in many ways we are.. We see eye to eye on many situations that Tody just wouldn't understand... The only problem with Perry and me is he is 21...I am only 17...My parents do not seem to think that I am mature enough to date someone like Perry... Well if it's maturity they wnat then it's maturity they are gonna get!! But I have 2 go now!!! Bye!!! (Someone please help me out!! I need advice!!!)

Current Mood: flirty
Stuck in Hell
Friday, May 20th, 2005
2:36 pm
RaWR! Tuesday is my last day of school!! HoOraY 4 Me!!!
i'm not going to my mommy's house this weekend! i've changed my mind!!! vickie can't come so why go? plus i really wanted to spend some time with tody, to see if breaking up with him is the thing to do..cuz right now it doesn't look so good...i absolutely love his new truck! it sounds good...but once again not as good as perry's...LOL..god! what am i going to do this weekend?! i have the same song still stuck in my head as yesterday! April Sixth's "Dear Angel". oh well...god! my life sucks ass...it's not cool to have to make these kind of decisions!!! tody or perry, perry or tody!? god damn it! i am so confused! WTF!? how would ya'll handle this? the person you love and you're dating or the person you've known since before you knew the other existed and you are madly in love with??? decisions, decisions...WHAT DO I DO!? perry made me cry so bad wednesday afternoon... see his mom died april 27th...and the 3 week anniversary of her death was wednesday..he called me and i asked him what he had been doing and he said he'd been at the cemetary..he said he had to talk to his mom...then he said he has felt lost and empty for the past 3 weeks and really doesn't know where to go from here.. tell me that isn't depressing and doesn't make you want to 2 cry! (and i 'll show you a middle finger in your face!) i feel so alone like no one knows how i feel...and no one is giving me any suggestions of what 2 do!!!! not even my friends, they just say do what you feel in your heart is the right thing 2 do...i guess that helps a little..but i guess it's just not what i wanted to hear... i feel selfish 2... i always want what i can't have until i get it then after a week i don't want it anymore...that's the way it is with tody as you can read in previous journals i have written.. but i guess i better go now... BuH byeZ!!!

-Katie

Current Mood: stressed
Stuck in Hell
Thursday, May 19th, 2005
1:35 pm
heYloW!
hi everyone! i am so bored! sorry i didn't right much yesterday i was a little bit caught up...i am seriously deciding whether or not to break up with tody...everyone seems to think i should...but i know it's not about them it's what i feel in my heart is the right thing to do..and right now i don't exactly feel like i know right from wrong...i want to break up with him whenever he isn't around and when he is around i realize how bad i don't want to hurt him and think twice about it..i am so confuzled...but i figure i will end up doing it before to long...but on a better note tody got a new truck today! it's my truck! the one i have always wanted!!! color and all!!! it's not fair!!!! oh well..it's just like perry's truck but extended cab...no one would ever guess who is trying to get with me now! JEREMY GOODE...ya'll don't know him but he is hot shit around this town..everyone knows him..and he is so hot! if i wasn't dating tody i might...*thinks to self* "might my ass!" i don't know many who wouldn't want to get them some of that! LOL! well i better stop babbling on about him and go!!!! BuH BYeZ!!

<3 Katie

Current Mood: okay
Stuck in Hell
Wednesday, May 18th, 2005
2:52 pm
hi!
hey you guys! ya'll like my new icon...? i do!!! lol..anywayz i can't wait to come back to memphis this weekend!!!! it will be awesome! vickie is coming 2...we are drinkin' and swimmin all weekend!!!! yay! what fun!?

-Katie

Current Mood: chipper
Stuck in Hell
Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
1:40 pm
~~Hello!~~
hello homeboys and girls! whats crackin'? lol..just kiddin...anyways it has been a while since i have written anything so whats up!? nothin here except the usual..skool sux, boyfriends suck more..no actually everything is awesome between tody and i..this friday will be 2 months..i know..its amazing that i haven't broken up with him yet but i haven't even thought about any other guys since perry's mom died. after she died i realized perry must not need me very much because the last time i talked to him was 2 fridays ago and he won't call me..the only guys i really chat with now are nathan, junior, michael o., sam, richard, and wesley. which that is stange because all that i used to talk to was guys now i am hangin around all of these prepie chicks..no offense but that isn't me...i choose guys to hang around over girls any day...i mean think about wouldn't you (if you're a chick) rather be surrounded by fine guys other than a whole bunch of bithin chicks? shit i know i would! oh..PROM was friday!!!! it was so much fun!!! but i didn't dance! )-: oh well...i still had a blast with tody... and tody came over yesterday and spent the day with me!! it was so sweet because he bought me this big rose! i couldn't stop kissing him! lol!!! well i better go now!!! bye..
Stuck in Hell
Thursday, April 28th, 2005
11:46 pm
YO!
This summer has sucked big wankie doodleZ! Todie and i are still togather...which to me is unbelieveable because i am the queen of screwin things up and yet i have not screwed this up completely...i mean yest i admit to cheating on tody..but by all means he deserved it....the third...okay 5th time but still i apologized 2 him....n e ways..perry and i are still close...but not as close as we used to be..ever sivce school got out 4 summer we have been somewhat drifting apart...oh how i miss him so...he told me today that he misses me as well...awww how sweet right?? i love perry to death he always knows the righ words to say to take my breathe away....lol..literally...j/k....but anyways.. i better go now my dumbass sister is trying to read this...

Current Mood: naughty
Stuck in Hell
Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
2:44 pm
hey!Hey!
yo yo yo!i am so hyper right now it isn't even funny..I WANT CHOCOLATE!1 i might be going to my mommy's house this weekend.. but i'm not sure because i have no one to go chill with me! i could just chill at dana's or britt's house with them... but i might end up not going...it all depends on what kind of mood i am in on friday! if i don't have plans down here i will end up goin to my mommy's!!! i am going 2 prom with tody on may 6...i am so excited! i already have the dress and everything picked out! it is so cute! but i better go now! byeZ!

Tyler:"ummm...mrs. fortner!!! she just softly caressed my ass!! is that sexual harrassment?!"

Mrs. Fortner:"maybe, but those words that just came out of your mouth could be used as even worse sexual harrassment!"

"...brrrrnnntt..." *he scans the room as the whole class stares*"It was lester!" *points at he boy next to him*;Brandon

<3 Katie
LaterZ

Current Mood: hyper
Stuck in Hell
Monday, March 21st, 2005
2:57 pm
howdy!!
hey you guys! i don't have much to say except tody and i are dating again...and i accidently kinda sorta cheated on him a little bit! and i am going to my momma's friday!!! here's some lyrics...
"Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you

Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight

What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight

Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?

[Chorus]
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight"

<3 Buh BYeZ!
-Katie

Current Mood: mischievous
Stuck in Hell
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
1:25 pm
SPRING BREAK!!!
hey..i am bouncing off the fuckin' walls yo'! oh..sorry, it's been a while since i have written but so much has happend!!Last weekend i got so fucked up it wasn't even funny..then monday night i cried myself to sleep because tody told 2 of my friends that he was never going to ask me back out and some more shit...i didn't talk to him all day tuesday... but wednesday i messed up and talked to him. i was so happy though because he flirted with me all 5th period and i am still happy because he was flirting with me today..lol..i know it sounds childish but oh well...SPRING BREAK is here..in about 30 minutes school is getting out early for a state championship basketball game in Jackson, Mississippi..my school is playing the number one team in the state of Mississippi, Durant....we may not win but atleast we made it this far!! but i have to go now..i need to start bracing myself for tonight because i am going to get tore up from the floor up with my friend Craig Briscoe..if you know him good...oh well buh byez!

Current Mood: bouncy
Stuck in Hell
Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005
1:33 pm
hey
heylow everybody!! wow...i haven't written in a while! let me see the last time i wrote anything tody was telling vickie he just wanted to be friends with me for a while..now he is tellin vickie that he is seriously thinking about asking me out again..well anyways...friday night was so AWESOME!! i was with perry all night!! i got to the pool hall and then he showed up...then i went with him riding around with smoochie a.k.a. albert...next we got drunk together then he gave me and amber a ride to her house... *blushes* he kissed me...4 or 5 times..twice in amber's bed then another few times in his truck, but now i am too focused on what tody does i don't even realize perry exists...but i am going to start acting like i don't care so much for tody...because i am under the impression that if i act like he doesn't effect me then he will probably end up liking me more than i like him..(that is what i have wanted all along)..but right now i also want a boyfriend so i am not sure how to act...lol well i have to go now..bUh bYeZ!

<3 KatiE

Current Mood: confused
Stuck in Hell
Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
2:54 pm
yo! yo!
hey i had a pretty good valentine's day!! my friend derrick bought me roses!! i felt so special!! but i didn't get my gift yet from perry...he won't tell me what it is.. he said he will give it to me the next time he sees me....thanks to perry i have a song stuck in my head!!!! 3 doors down;"let me go"! and i can't stop singing it!! i think tody and i are actually speaking to one another and it's wierd because he has been flirting with me excessively!! oh well i am just happy he isn't trying to resist me like one of his friends told him to..see derrick, the guy who bought me the flowers, told tody a week ago to resist me because if he flirts and talks to me he is giving in to what i want and if he resisted me for long enough that it would make me like him even more..i was told about this friday 6th period..so i told derrrick that that plan was just making me like tody less..so derrick told him friday that if he likes me to hurry up and show it! lol...it worked! well i guess i better go now!!

BUH BYEZ!
Stuck in Hell
Friday, February 11th, 2005
2:35 pm
Yo!
hey you guys i found out why mr. tody won't talk to me anymore..i was so shocked when i found out.. but it's because my friend derrick (and tody's friend also) told him to resist me because it will make me like tody more..actually the fact that he is ignoring me is making me get even more distant from him..and tonight i am supposed to be going on a date because i am trying to get over tody...AND IT IS ALL DERRICK'S FAULT! he is so wrong and he should feel so horrible..because it is because of him why i may never go out with tody again and tody is going to be upset when he finds out that derrick's plan, a plan that he thought would work so well, went sour! ha, ha, ha!!! oh well..hopefully derrick will mention that to tody..i am supposed to be going on a date with perry tonight but for some reason i am not really all that excited..)-:..oh well..g2g!! britt if you read this e-mail me sometime!! (punkysk8er_101@yahoo.com)!

SUM 41
"Pieces"

"I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I thought it’d be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own

On my own

I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along

If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own"

Current Mood: shocked
Stuck in Hell
Thursday, February 10th, 2005
2:43 pm
hey
hey you guyz!!! i am so bored..i have a freakin' song stuck in my head....The Used-take it away...yep yep yep! hello there brittni, if you're reading this!! sorry i didn't get to call you back last night..i got into trouble for not doin chores!!!

QUOTES:

"Dog! Hey Dog! Did you see the size a' that chicken?"~Dirty Steve from Young Guns (the movie)

well igots 2 go now! buh byeZ!!

Current Mood: blah
Stuck in Hell
Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
2:49 pm
hi
today i feel better because i found out that tody actually does want to go back out with me!!!! but i don't know when we will start..but friday i have plans with perry and perry thinks that i am going to kiss him on friday...but i would hate to do this to perry but he has waited too long to date me...because i have been waiting on him since i broke up with tody the first time...and nothin has happend so i don't know..i don't even know if i am going anywhere with perry friday nigh because my daddy said that since perry is 20 then i really don't need to be messing with him sice i am only 16...but he said when i am 17 my dad said he would let me date whomever i want, and him not have a say so in it!! yay! but if i get back with tody i am planning on staying with him for a while....g2g now..buh byeZ!!!

Current Mood: bouncy
Stuck in Hell
Monday, February 7th, 2005
2:59 pm
SCARS...LUV THIS SONG!!!
"Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

Current Mood: confused
Stuck in Hell
Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
1:15 pm
hey!
hey guys! whats up? n-s-h! all of my friends are trying to get tody and i hooked back up...which is great but i honestly don't think he wants to because i think he still is uneasy because i broke up with him 2 times already...but i know this time that i am never going to do that again because i wouldn't want him to treat me like shit..and i do know that is how i treated him and i deserve to have my heart broken...i just wish that i could make it up to him ya' know? but i have to go now so i might write back next period!BYE..

Current Mood: busy
Stuck in Hell
Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
2:45 pm
*SIGHS* YaY!
hey..i am happy now...tody and i are talking again now..and i am not mad at him at all and i don't blame him for anything that has happend so far between us...but he has been writing me notes and i have been writing him too..a friend of his told me that he told him that he said wants to go back out with me!!!!!!!! YAY!OMFG! sorry that just really shocked me!!! but i have to go now...

Current Mood: crazy
Stuck in Hell
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